The outside world is neutral, it's lame and pathetic but has it's beauty and interesting things. There are pros and cons what the world has, but I am apathetic and fill with a gap of being empty.
With your kind of thinking, it's no wonder certain people won't bug you. Who'd want to associate with " anti-social I know it all shut-ins"? The world is never nice, but you could learn how to cope with it.
The problem lies with what you're looking for in life. I've learn to cope through Christ. Others have their own ideas of commitment. It's really on you.
I am who and what I am, nobody will change my views. I don't care who they are, me won't be manipulated, use as a pawn or puppet by someone who has a different point of view. I am no light nor dark and that's how it will be for me.
If you're neither light nor dark, that already tells me something. You are what you are, but you sure sound indecisive about it when someone wants to know: what do you stand for?
Standing for yourself has no meaning if you aren't too sure of yourself. Using poetic dark light wise sayings with character references sounds like a mask.
Henceforth I am a mask on the internet, but that's okay because I am not seeking a girl nor woman nor boy nor man. I been empty since I was born a human, I am a shell of what I once were.
That silly mask has gotta come off. Why don't you be honest with yourself? Are you so lonely that you feel empty? God isn't gonna magically give you friends. You gotta make it happen, and then he'll bless you.
You don't want to go down this dark route I used to tread on. I became suicidal because I felt empty and wanted to feel appreciated. Why I waste time telling you all this is I see a bit of me in you.
If you haven't noticed, not many people online will tell you all this. I'm rebuking your poetic dark hocus pocus logic because I actually give a care like a real human should. Heck I don't believe God wants you to have a sad outlook in life.
We're all fortunate and unfortunate people despite we have friends and family. I see family and friends as any other mere human, but company is all that matters to me. I don't want to be take advantage of, nor be manipulated nor be somebody's pawn or puppet. Nearly everybody is being use by someone own benefits or standards. I am tired of being held back.
There is no such thing as a perfect friend who won't use you for a benefit. People will use each other for a benefit, but it'll hardly feel that way if the intentions to another happen to be mutual.
If you really want to know who is a true friend, you have to have be friendly yourself. You're not bold enough to go out there and find some.
The best kind of friend is one who argues with you and uses you, but he/she let you use him/her in return. You're going to hurt each other in the process, but the best thing after that is you learn to overlook the flaws in each other. Thus, love each other through rain and sunshine.
The only perfect friend is Jesus, and through him is an awesome relationship that's beyond comprehension.
I don't believe in a perfect friend nor tough love, but oh well it's whatever really. Being betrayed is my concern, especially cheaters these days. We're all mere humans, nothing more nor nothing less.
To be honest with you,I love and hate myself, I really dislike myself. My skills and abilities is my love, other things about me I hate. I was destroy and cast down since I was born, but I don't hold grudges nor vengeance on anyone. I am not seeking new friends and that's okay because I realize that won't make any difference, but hey I been thinking about being a hermit someday.
You're just bitter because you want to be appreciated through rain and sunshine. Is God's love not enough for you? Every time a bitter person says "I hate myself", they're spitting in God's face, their loved ones, and most importantly yourself.
What you need to stop doing is, crying over spilled milk. Life isn't fair, but you can try to make the most of it. No one bar God is gonna hold you by the hand to help. Sometimes God wants you get up and find yourself some friends so he can bless you.